Satisfied

Over the past two weeks, the Lord has been molding and shaping the inner parts of my heart to look more like Him. I have learned so much about the character of the Father and how His heart is truly for His children. I have tasted and seen His goodness, and yet I often come into His presence with a grey cloud fogging my heart and mind from being fully vulnerable. It can be such a challenge to continue to wrestle for clarity in the moments of solitude and silence when it can feel as though it is unattainable.

I have found through the process of letting go and surrendering my plans and overactive thoughts, my time with the Father is more restful and fruitful.

Through the continual grind of life, I am learning how necessary it is to seek Jesus fervently because it is only through Him that I will be able to fully live. While being out at JH, there are so many questions about what is next for us. The truth is that Benj and I aren’t sure. Our greatest heart’s desire is to be so focused on Jesus so that no matter what comes next, we will be content because our true satisfaction is not found in our jobs or environment, but rather being one with Christ. The closer we are to this reality, the more I find myself at complete peace because I know He is taking care of me.

I share these thoughts because I know how easy it is to forget. I so quickly play mind games with myself because society demands that having everything figured out will result in a good, happy, normal life. This mindset can quench the Holy Spirit and subject me to seeking comfort instead of the satisfaction that is supplied by the Creator. 

My heart for the rest of my time at JH is to transition and posture myself so that my mindset isn't focused on always asking questions, but rather taking each day captive as an opportunity to experience more of Jesus than the day before. I challenge you to release the chains of control and let Jesus be your supplier. This release is manifested in my own life by choosing solitude and creating space in my heart and mid to be satisfied and refreshed by Him. I have found that this small practice is incredibly life giving and rejuvenating in my own heart and soul. I challenge and encourage you to seek Jesus more by learning what is life-giving and refreshing for you.